Buddha, five hundred years ago, a desire to have the boys and girls life’s first met. Past Review of 500 times before this life in exchange for an intimate contact. I do not know whether we have given before the Buddha was willing, if it is, I would like to use ten thousand times for your meet, wanted to tell you that I love you … … I had a Red Dust myself, can only say that Red Dust in the matter. Buddha, Bodhi-tree, nor stand mirror. Down is also a forgotten realm. But the Buddha is the Buddha, non-ordinary people would have. Five hundred years ago, if a causal link, but decided this life to a love, I think that five hundred years ago, we must be relative to owe too much, otherwise they would not let present and you owe me and I owe you.
Come between the love of the mass, which is a material object down a
I was born, cried for a full 56 days, there was a fortune-teller is quasi-old man said, this woman with the Buddha destined. Now think about it, maybe he meant to say a lifetime because of ups and downs and insight to see through to lay down. However, lived 20 years, disillusioned with a lot of things, little things down. Always confident that he is Xinruzhishui people, the hearts of people come and go but will not leave marks, but the emergence of this self-confident until he found out the original Xinruzhishui because there is no experience that make you reconsider who hit just … …
Encounter
We are deeply attached to each way through the traditional knowledge. Although the bright sunshine outside the window that day, but still can not stop the chill. At that time I was at the table finishing things, I heard Kai Mensheng, looked up and saw my parents go first entered the room behind the parents have four older, ranging from strangers, through the introduction, I discovered that more than 40-year-old Aunt is to introduce the people, with the elderly in the 60-year-old was his father, a Sanshibajiu-year-old middle-aged man is his brother, while the youngest is his, my future husband. Day he wearing a down jacket, dark pants and shoes, let him look a whole is relatively mature, stable. We can sit down, I end on the fruit, followed by steep the tea for everyone. Because we are not too familiar with the atmosphere of some subtle embarrassment, Aunt He Liaokou water, point of cigarettes a tilt of the Erlang Tui, slow voice whispers that up: “This gives the age as a middleman introducing an object, we can say is a piece thankless Shier, if not I knew you two know that people are, quite simply live, I really can not be football this thing … … I wanted to say, and let the rest take a look at the child Zhelia and talk. “Aunt finished, my parents and he kept his family also echoed, speaking their own child’s strengths, and even do not like to spend a lot, became its virtues. I was sitting on a chair, laughed nodding his head, but the heart is somewhat uneasy, and that what is now to hang onto anything, how like a salesperson in selling the goods market. The corner of my eyes looked at him not far from my heart, even more gas, cattle what! Also leaned on a chair, cervical faults ah, not Yang’s face and I know that you face and large, the overall feeling that he’s face looks like Zhao Benshan, and later found unacceptable and quite like when you look at Alex Man’s. To go, we rush to talk a few. Out of courtesy, we gave each other left a phone number.
Acquaintance
The first formal meeting with him in a few days after the KFC store, we Lin Chuang while sitting, drink and chat, ice in the glass with Coke fully dissolve the sun through the window, sprinkling the body is very warm, Winnie Hsin play piano song “prayer” in the room flowing slowly, feeling very comfortable, seems to have forgotten the existence of others. Although the atmosphere comfortable, but I am still a little nervous, the body sitting very straight, alone with a stranger a meal, I can not be relaxed when he is so I give myself to find out the reason: no experience, next time just fine. After dinner we went to the mall a walk, and later he suggested to his sister, Jia Zuozuo. I froze a bit, and normally I should not have and are not familiar with the affinity that can not possibly grasp the object to a safe place to go, but have a voice in that heart, to go, he should not be on how you like and write it into ventured, nothing gained? To meet with his relatives, they will know something about him much information. Although think so, in fact, just go find their own reasons. Perhaps then, this self-centered little girl on the “planted” into his hands. His sister was also talking with my time chatting, always boasted that he intentionally or unintentionally, to how good this brother and said that we are quite affinity, the affinity for? I do not feel it. Although I have followed the echo, but do not think, but I can feel that they are very harmonious relationship between the siblings. Because of his Nogo would also like to see me, so I did not take the last train back (each meeting we all need to sit near a half-hour drive), the evening dinner with everyone, he could not help me Jia Cai, pour drinks, This person felt that he was down pretty considerate. After dinner we have a look at the time still early, went to walk around a park near here. That night the moon is a great round, do not put lights will shine a very bright, we are tired, and sat on a wooden chair, watching the moon chat, he said: “Are you cold hands? I look at your hands cool is not cool. “I do not think about it, it stretched out his hand, until he was anti-hand hold my, I know was the first time he has designed.
Contradictions
With the summer season, we are very familiar with, and I do not know when the beginning, I love him. Keep warm feeling more and more I seem to feel that he can not do without. The more so, the more he told me wanted to make commitment to make a decision, and make concrete action. But I feel that his words very far away from that kind of action seems to always be excuses, half-hearted me, I’m angry. If he had anything directly to say it, maybe I will readily accept. However, his flashing eyes, sleek words made me feel for their non-existent. If so, fell in love with a man who does not love me, then why embarrassing themselves, giving themselves a thin day by day due to circumstances of which he lost it. Always looking forward to him, not thinking to meet him, and met do not know what he wanted. His discourse far-fetched, let my emotions erratic, he said Every time I come to see me, because I will be angry with the performance and discourse, but he knows my heart hurt? After the separation between the two places the lives of more than an hour by car passers-by, so that parents have a hard time, saying that you forget it, find a local is also quite good. But came up with a person’s existence, it is difficult before being placed in another person, and I only had a heart呀. Sometimes, looking at him, I looked at him thoughtfully, he did not know what is going on while I was worried, but he did not know how my pain! He said that you do not say I do not know what to do, but do not eat pork, have not seen a pig run do? Do not know, sleek sophisticated people who do not know what will? Is everything I need to express clearly and simply take the initiative? Would not upside down? Alas, this scene that how a bitter Zile De. Sometimes I lie on his shoulders, life this way, what do not want to.
Days walk day by day, we still like Yau forward, I do not want this, and tired. If the two had together, tired and happy to be more than it has so Hao Zhao Why, it is better separation of good. I have to give up, but really moved hearts, and that he simply sleeves really do not take away a cloud? Those two days I was waiting for his call, if he could tell the real digging, then I’ll stay, for him to stay. But he did not, I understand, perhaps in his mind I’m not very important. I picked up the backpack, get on a Beijing-bound train, car voice is very noisy, the atmosphere is very lively, spirited look at those who go to Beijing to visit students, and I suddenly feel old, although our age difference does not Great. Drowsily 18 days, my body in exile, but the body and mind are still incarcerated, regardless of wherever, vision stopped where his image will appear, gas themselves, Why did not live up to expectations, just a man, what are good, good man in the world either, why the mind does not fit him? Later, he also came to Beijing, but I did not with him. Because of his own heart was a mess and did not sort out a clue. Here will not solve any problem to meet, from where to start from where the end of the bar. Back when I called him, and we did not formally end after all, out of courtesy, or make a phone call better. The phone I told him I go back to the time and the trips, he did not say or not to pick me up. I would like to not answer Ye Hao, so that they will be more give up hope! Get off before the sky with rain, but the station after the rain stopped, but my heart is still Rain in the Mist. His father and brother go first over, then told me that he came. To see him in the moment, the heart seems to be alive, and perhaps never died. What “rhetoric” and what time of treatment with scars and what did not contact him firmly, are shit. Forget, I have surrendered, and not to ask him whether I truly, do love me, even if he is a fake heart, but I feel like I really on the list. Themselves silly, I really prada boots moths flying into the fire, beyond redemption by. He readily took my hand luggage, without saying a word. We talked for an afternoon of that day, watching the joy in the eyes of this let me let me worry about the man, I think a lot of contact with more feeling there will be a. Moved more, rational reduced. Less rational, they had emotional. Let me first tempted the face of this man can Dalie Lie in the face of this man into my heart, facing the first one in my life man, this woman stupid enough to make one hard to forget. Once bit by bit like beads and capsules were strung and hung in their hearts – a quarrel, we have, and better. Dark, cold wind, he gave me clothes, Phi, I saw the dress unlined garment, he could not bear not to accept, then he wrapped me in his clothes. – He told me that the words are too blunt, like Cha Hukou, I can not stand, and break off the relationship. He knew he was wrong, and buy that everlasting roses to apologize to me, brushing my pout sarcastic. – Went for a walk, standing in the mountains, he shouted love me. I let him translate 584,131,421, he Haoben, in my prompt know what that means. He was grabbed from behind me, attached to my ear, whispered that I swear whole life love you. – Something for only one person, he always give me, but the result is always one half of us. – A look at newspapers, above, said that when a woman gave birth to the man said he wanted one child, a man will appear two kinds of situation: one is the immediate face became pale, and then Duomen while running, thus missing the game to play with you ; the other is to hear that he will be more hard work to earn money, to be a good man. But when I talk about him, he went so far as it touched Shenqingkuankuan looked at me and say that they love my life and cherish my prada shoes whole life. I just want to test his reaction, but this is not a newspaper to say that the above two cases, I froze at the time of the field. – Car cold, he gave me his hand cover their ears, got off his ears frozen red. – My hands are always warm winter and cool summer, so cold he would give me the right hand to cover their left hand, the temperature of his handed to me. – Tired, he would let me leaning against his shoulder, in fact, I know that he not very comfortable, I am not comfortable. – Once he said my house for dinner, I gave him Jiacai move him touched him I felt concern. I hear heart Yi Chan, Hao Teng. Yes, they had only used him Jiacai, you will not care about people, not to care for their loved ones. Xue Bai, may be it is learned here? – Always felt himself grow up and let him for taking care of. – His innocently brush up his lap rest days. – When a cell phone ring three times, that I love you. – Usually quietly down to eat his favorite food, his shirt size, waist circumference, the number, shoe size, the length of pants, but also from time to time say they like to do, like to eat, so that He remembered. Down really we just can not be forgotten, we just can not put just really did not want to let go release him. – Since you say is difficult to integrate into my family, then how can you not go, the old watch Why, and others to go outside and so on. – I sat for a while, no? – To those who are customers, of course. – I 3:30 left. – Now backward in three minutes to 3:30, go, good-bye! – Do you cry? – Cry, but not now, not in front of you (in fact, is already in the hearts of tears, and soon could not help but cry out). – You gas me … …
Last
In fact, this is not the final, because life continues. We’ve been married, this is the only one I think that things quickly, took less than 10 days, let us running around in circles. He was very happy wedding day, with a total Liezhezuixiao. Receive a marriage certificate as the day of the Civil Affairs Bureau in front of his face let me raise a serious swear Gaoshimegui also swear I angry. He quickly explained to me a smile that they obtain a permit before my colleagues are like this, and then he faced swear I raised my hand, I am the same. In fact, I do not like Shanmenghaishi not be only a momentary feeling that we live in peace Dan Ding is the most important. The day we married each other to adapt to run-in with, after all, their 20 years of life did not track each other’s existence. However, an accident occurred, I was in physical illness to give up our first child. He likes a good children, and used to say I want to be Daddy, you said you would be when the mother is what kind. Remember when he put his ear on my stomach, listening to decent, ultra-sound, in fact he did not hear anything, but he will say that I have heard, baby call my father at the time of appearance, I do not consciously laugh , I want my body to get better quickly, and then for his birth to a healthy cute baby. I like the Xi Murong’s poem, an “every girl born, one corner of the earth, there will be a boy quietly waiting,” so I think that waiting for my boy will appear. , “A flowering tree”: How can I meet you / In my life the most beautiful moment / for this, I seek the five centuries before the Buddha / demand it reminds us knot a carnal / Buddha then took me into a Tree / Long inevitable in your street / blossom … … I am reading this poem over and over again, thinking of life known to the world, leisurely decades, we do not know the Buddha prayed for centuries? Is mortal beings, to a worldly easy? Met once, easy? Gently say: Dear, and easy to do? Therefore, we should cherish this hard-won happiness, treasure owned by people. I do not know, do not say ten, twenty, thirty years later, we would happen, but I know grasp now and seize this prada moment, enough. Let him know that although I sometimes wayward, but I am really good love him, gently touched his sleeping face, like he said: “My husband, and perhaps this is really my life I owe you!”